For the past few days.. ok.. the past few weeks..
victor has not been doing well.
victor is feeling tired..
tired is just a term.. drained is more of the word..
victor is drained physically, mentally, spiritually..
on the surface, victor seems to be ok. putting on a brave front,
a false pretence that all is alright..
victor is being not himself, being a hypocrite..
victor is not helping himself by being the "nice" person,
encouraging others NOT..
with biblical stuff, "trust God" words..
victor is not being victor
victor is tired not being victor
victor is NOT ok.
victor is lost.
victor is trapped.
like a fish swimming in this vast sea,
not knowing that its enclosed in a fish bowl,
just going round and round,
on an endless journey..
victor is crying out from his heart.
a scream that cannot be heard from the outside
victor is desperate for some1 to help him..
to support him, talk to him, encourgage him
victor is very heavy-hearted..
victor is lost..
victor just want to crawl into some hole
and just disappear from the face of the earth
or just curl up in bed, hide under the blanket
and sleep the years away..
RUN victor RUN..
victor is tired of everything
everthing that is going on in his life
just tired.. drained..
victor wants to seek God
but still, victor is aimlessly walking about
wandering in the desert
round and round..
stop wandering victor.. stop and rest..
victor wants to rest..
wants to seek God..
but victor does not know how..
saying it is easy but not the doing..
victor wants to experience God
but how?
step of faith is not there..
not even one that is as small as a musturd seed
does victor has
victor has no strength to carry on..
victor is on a struggle..
like a fish out of water,
struggling for air..
flip-flopping around until it dies..
going going gone..
lost..
lost*
Need direction..
Need options..
God, where are you?
HAMSTER FIGHT!!!
i just bought a cage.. a cage for rabbits i think.. and wanting to use it for my hamsters.
Thought that it can house my 2 syrian hamsters together.
Well.. i was cos i thot that it was big enuff.. and sigh, its not.
In the end, both of my hamsters fought. and my black hamster got bitten so badly.
Its fur was mattered with blood.. sigh..
think part of its fur and skin got bitten off cos i could see the flesh.. poor thing..
but still... it got the bigger cage..
Now i know..a BIG cage is not too big a space for 2 dominant hamsters to fight for territory.
Come and be renewed with
Mike MacIntosh, Don Moen and Delirious?
for a time of passionate praise and worship.
With internaltion speaker
Dr Phil Pringle
from Christian City Church, Sydney,
to minister the word of God every night
Date: 3 - 5 August
Fri (3 Aug): 1930h
Sat (4 Aug): 1900h
Sun (5 Aug): 1900h
Singapore Indoor Stadium
2 Stadium Walk
Singapore 397691
Contact: +65 6737-6266
anyone wanna go? buzz me ok? =)
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2 weeks has just passed so fast.. When we've just barely started to click, all good things have to come to an end.
no more:
1. "Vietnam ooeeeiiiii"
2. Vietnamese boys trying to ask me to sell my PSP to them
3. "Victor Dep Trai"
4. "Everybody dance now..."
It seemed such a long way when the camp started, hoping that it would end faster.. but then, as time passed, it started to change. I enjoyed their company so much.. making fun of them, disturing boys and girls alike, making a fool of myself (but seriously enjoying it), takign candid shots of them... oh well.. all good things got to come to an end..
I just want to thank each and everyone of you, from the bottom of my heart. Although i have to admit that i do not know all of your names, ill still remember you by faces.. =)
Here are some photos for memories.. enjoy.. =)
Victor (t0r).
Enteredtheworld, 29/09.
Christian.
Tributor.
FLIGHTer [0].
Guitarist.
Bassist.
Drummer.
WorshipLeader.
Mimist.
EarlyChildhoodEducator.
*My Heart's deepest wishes*
* Grow closer to God each day
* Walk With Jesus Daily
* Be A DOG
* Share the Gospel
* External Family to receive God as personal Saviour
* Friends to receive God as personal Saviour
* To be raptured.. =)[1 Thessalonians 4:13-17]
*MY WISH LIST*
#1___ 3 storey cage for my hamster
#2___ Mango Soft Cream Wax from Foodskin*
#3___ 4G ipod NANO
#4___ SE [w580i] or [w660i] or [w850i] or N95
#5___ new leather sling bag
#6___ piano/keyboard
#7___ Amplifier for eletronic drum set
#8___ Digital metronome
#9___ Creative Prodikeys DM
#10___ DSC-W50/S Cyber-shot W Series